October 2009
23 posts
No secrets.
http://fearfuckeverythingandrun.tumblr.com/
Try finding that.
it’s explicit! and I’m done with this tumblr.
I'm out.
For as long as it takes for me to figure out whatever I have to. I’ll still be around though but I’m keeping a safe distance from people. I’ll stick to what never turned it’s back on me, paper and pen.
I’ll lay it out for you though, I’m an idiot. Completely moronic. Never once had I considered that something that I wanted to be private would be leaked. This is...
HEY ______, HAVEN'T SEEN YOU IN AWHILE.
DON’T WORRY I’VE BEEN WORKIGN UPT A SMILE.
I STARTED DOING DRUGS
NO I HAVENT’ FELL IN LOVE
IM BOUT TO QUIT THE BAND
BUT I THINK YOULL UNDERSTAND
IM COMIGN HOME
IM COMING HOME SOON
JUST THINK ABOUT IT
IM COMING HOME SOON
NOTHING TO DO BUT THINK ABOUT IT
IM COMING HOME SOON
DO WE JUST THINK ABOUT IT
JUST THINK ABOUT IT
HEY _____, HAVNE’T SEEN YOU IN SO LONG
AND...
“Because you’re looking for a date, not love. Because you’re more...”
“Where you are, right here and now, this is how bad stories end. But it’s...”
“I think about you all the time, but I don’t need the same. It’s...”
“Did you lose yourself somewhere out there? Did you get to be a star? Don’t...”
“This is the distance, this is my game face. There’s really no way to reach...”
“Wait this isn’t me that you’re talking to. This is a front that I...”
Listen
Update.
I went to the library for lunch. Sneaking around makes me feel b.a!1!!
I am going to try to sleep again.
This is harder than I thought. There are good nights and bad nights, the ones when I can’t stop thinking about it- thinking about you.
And where I’m headed when I leave for home. I don’t know where that is. I don’t know where home is.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CsZRPTLMk9s
Any spare room where you are? We could share a bed ;)
I wouldn’t mind.
“I hear your name in certain circles and it always makes me smile. I spend my...”
Insomnia
LOLZ, Caitie.
meghantheshrimp:
“Bald people scare me.” “…What..?” “THEY JUST DO.” :|
I am going to get my head shaved now.
“It’s your finger, and how I’m wrapped around it. It’s your...”
“No, I don’t want to wait forever.”
“It’s about how you laugh out of pity because let’s be honest,...”
11170.) I have finally realized that I love you....
(via blogsecret)
You've changed me.
In ways that I did and did not want to be changed.
Now this song isn’t about a girl…it’s about life.
Because you “broke the bonds and loosed chains” but then turned it around, “carrying the cross of my shame.”
You know I believe it. But I still haven’t found what I’m looking for.
And now I know what is needed to be done.
September 2009
34 posts
LMFAOSF, whatta qt.
jfans is god: http://22.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_kptkvpinYB1qzpwi0o1_500.jpg
jfans is god: ;)
I SHOWED HIM THAT OK
I SHOWED HIM
MEMEMEME
SHES A LIAR, I M JUST A CHARMER
NO
BITCH
haaalylah: http://22.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_kptkvpinYB1qzpwi0o1_500.jpg
haaalylah: omg!
jfansisgod: LFMOASF thats funny
haaalylah: LOOK IMMA MAKE IT LOOK LIKE I SENT THAT TO YOU FIRST
jfansisgod: wtf no
SEE I CAN FAKE IMs, TOO.
jfansisgod: i'm such a liar
jfansisgod: im a jew
jfansisgod: LMFAOSF
haaalylah: why are you so
haaalylah: dumb
lol!1
jfansisgod: you're a bad liar
haaalylah: everyone believes every word that comes from my dsl :3
LMFAOSF, whatta qt.
jfans is god: http://22.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_kptkvpinYB1qzpwi0o1_500.jpg
jfans is god: ;)
I SHOWED HIM THAT OK
I SHOWED HIM
MEMEMEME
SHES A LIAR, I M JUST A CHARMER
NO
BITCH
haaalylah: http://22.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_kptkvpinYB1qzpwi0o1_500.jpg
haaalylah: omg!
jfansisgod: LFMOASF thats funny
haaalylah: LOOK IMMA MAKE IT LOOK LIKE I SENT THAT TO YOU FIRST
jfansisgod: wtf no
SEE I CAN FAKE IMs, TOO.
IamM3gatron: I love you the most, Joel. and, :o Jewish food? Auto response from jfans is god: my little brother is not taking it in the chili ring! jfans is god: no hot dogs jfans is god: wtf do u think jfans is god: T_T jfans is god: LFMOASF IamM3gatron: LFMASOFMLA IamM3gatron: T_T jfans is god: i just pictured jfans is god: a group jfans is god: of jew nerds jfans is god: pushing up jfans is...
LMFAOSF, whatta qt.
jfans is god: http://22.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_kptkvpinYB1qzpwi0o1_500.jpg
jfans is god: ;)
I SHOWED HIM THAT OK
I SHOWED HIM
MEMEMEME
SHES A LIAR, I M JUST A CHARMER
“The perfect words never crossed my mind because there was nothing in there but...”
I’m cutting myself off. I won’t be on...
Coming home for a week or two.
I can’t.
Fuck tumblarity.
Done
11:06
and I can’t sleep. I didn’t finish the paper either because once again, I’ve let you get to me. You get the best of me every time, even if I’m too far away and I thought I was safe, out of contact. I almost broke someone else’s phone from gripping it so tight. No, I didn’t mean to get all of my money stolen. Because people plan that kind of shit, right? I...
Below are my goodbyes
It’s not all of them because the second email didn’t send. I’m going to have my brother email me the rest. Don’t think I forgot you because I didn’t.
Just keep checking this and I’ll get it to you eventually. Sorry.
Jess
I met you first because you weren’t aware of what an underscore was. I really hadn’t expected to talk to you more than that. But I did. I expect shit like that. I didn’t think that I’d care for you as much as I do and that I’d miss you as much as I did when you and Kiara were gone. What I think happened was I became used to having you around. I thought you were someone who was always going to be...
Anjana
I used to actually like you, like you. You know. I look back on that now and not to offend, I laugh. I do like you but not in that way. I think that we should go to the Middle East and start a campaign, even though you’re not an Arab. We still should though because you’re Indian and I’m Jewish. Like the song in Bruno, we could promote it and make some big money. I met you through Michelle I think,...
Hayley
You’re really out there. I don’t mean this to be offensive in anyway. It’s something that I always liked about you and it always drew me in. You are a real character. I wish you wouldn’t have pulled away though, that’s something that always bothered me. I don’t know what I come off as to some people but if I ever made you feel unwanted or not needed, I’m sorry. You puzzled me most of the time....
Lylah
You’re going to be my sister in law in the future so there is no point in saying goodbye to you. Naw, I’ve got a lot to thank you for. You being around this past year has helped more than you probably think you have. I’ve said this before but you’re wise beyond your years. When you told me how old you were I honestly didn’t believe you. That’s a good thing though. You know when you can kid around...
Monique
You were able to say whatever bad thing you wanted in my name, and I wouldn’t care. We were able to argue every day and I still wouldn’t mind. I know it is something that you do not usually find on the internet, but you were like a younger sister to me. You were older than me but I still felt like it was my responsibility to not let anyone fuck with you and treat you like shit. Because you didn’t...
Michelle
You and I were weird. We were weird together. We weird enough that we worked. I remember talking about Morgan Freeman…at least I think that was you. I told you how my brother thought that Morgan Freeman was god. I was going to try to make things awkward for you because you made shit awkward for me all of the time. Recall the never game shit in that aim chat when Hendrix started asking me if I took...
Meghan
“I’m sitting here, bored out of my mind and my internet isn’t working and it’s like that video on youtube, I’d explain it more if I could watch the video now but I can’t because of the internet…. but in the video there’s that thing with the eyes widening. I think it’s called a bush baby, I don’t remember but whatever it is called, that’s what I’m like right now. There’s nothing on TV either so I’m...
Kiara
I have known you from the beginning, I tried talking to you recently and it was awkward. I think that is my fault, I always allow people to drift from me. I let go. It’s always easier to look back when it is no longer happening to figure out why things happened. Honestly, though I am trying to figure it out, I still do not know what really happened. I know you left, you took a part of Jess and me...
Noah, Holly, I don't know who the fuck you are.
You have always confused the fuck out of me and when I call you on it, I am put to blame. Maybe I was to blame, I don’t know. Since I am leaving and I’m being honest with everyone, I wanted to tell you that I think I meant more to you than you did to me. I cared though, don’t get me wrong, I always cared but when I am constantly told that I don’t give a shit, and that I treat you like dirt, I...
Isabel
I guess I figured that I would write about you because I had a lot to apologize for. I’ve taken many cheap shots at you in the past, many that I know I can’t really make up for, after hearing what you’ve had to say. There was always something about you that confused me. Everyone knows you because of your reputation but really, once I started actually talking to you, I didn’t see how you were the...
Effy
I’ve known you longer than a lot of people from roleplay and that surprises me because I forget that most of the time. We used to talk a lot, though it was difficult to keep up with you changing your name almost every day. I only remember you as Effy which is good because I think you have finally decided to stick to one name. I don’t know really what I can write about you because you are different...
Miguel
You started preaching that the Dallas Cowboy’s could beat the Eagles any day, any time, any place. When I watched that one game that led to the playoffs when the Eagles walked allover the Cowboys, I kept saying in my head ‘I told you so’. You were all laughs most of the time but I learned later on that you did have a kind of serious side. ..I guesss. You started trying to get me to set you up with...
Let go.
You think that I’m lying, cheating
You’re the one that is deceiving
be like the rest because I know
I know that you’re leaving
Maybe not now
But you will be soon
Just writing this gives me the chills
Chills, thinking about you
Because you’re leaving
You’re leaving soon
I’ve been living life to quickly
Take this time
Take this time and try to find
Find what...
“Any fool can make things bigger, more complex, and more violent. It takes a...”
– Einstein
I came up with a new strategy to quit smoking
I took a sharpie marker and named all of my cigarettes. That way I don’t want to smoke them. Unfortunately, I smoked Devon the Jew and Christina the hoar.
